I wish I could have met her,
But that wasn't meant to be,
She passed on a year before,
You had ever even met me.
Your sister says she'd have loved me,
With as much as I love you,
And to be completely honest,
I certainly hope that's true.
I wish she'd be at our wedding,
To cry with pride for her son,
To ask how many kids we'll have,
Though the answer will always be "None."
I wish that we could visit her,
whatever time we want,
To have conversations and laughs,
On the porch swing out front.
I promise we'll go back someday,
To lay flowers on her stone,
I'll try to wipe the tears away,
To which you might be
Perhaps I was wrong in thinking we should be apart.
After all, it wasn't bad at all in the beginning.
True, things were downhill for awhile.
Really though, it's better now, isn't it?
I love you, and I always will.
Could you do something for me?
Keep me in your heart, always.
Anytime you call, I'm always here.
Never will I leave your side.
Til the day you tell me to.
Hell, not even then.
Only with you do I want to be.
Not even when I'm gone will I stop loving you.
You mean too much to me.
Tear me to pieces emotionally.
Anger and rage could be all you feel.
Yet I can't abandon the hurting boy I see.
Love is all I can bear to fe
I have died a thousand times,
Holding in my lovesick rhyme,
Wish you would forever be mine.
I should have listened to you,
You were right all along,
Now I forge my regret,
Into a tuneless song.
When did life,
Become so wrong?
Life was better with you here.
I know it'd take some time to fully heal.
But I don't want to.
Because I want you.
I know what I said before,
But I've run it through my head,
A thousand times or more,
And being alone,
Kills me to the core.
I don't need me anymore
And neither do you
You never did
Did you
Tear me down mentally
I am nothing now
What's left
No one
Take all that I have
All that I am
Break me
Apart
It only takes 1 pound of pressure to pierce human skin
And only it takes 1 moment alone to make me cry
I may not be made of glass or paper
But I am made of flesh and blood
I'm shattered just as easily
I am not a skyscraper
I'm the Twin Towers
I can't rise above
I've burned down
I'm dead inside
I can't take it
I can't stand on my feet anymore
They're too bloody and bruised
I've crawled into a corner
Hugging my knees hard
Crying broken sobs
I want
I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday... by FadeAway1694, literature
Literature
I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday...
I have loved you all my life,
Without ever seeing the hidden knife.
I listened to your political view,
And your conspiracies, though slightly askew.
I loved your music, movies, and games,
Growing up, we had loved the same things.
We forged a bond, you and I,
One I had hoped would never die.
But I was wrong, and now I see,
That we are no longer a family.
We barely even tolerate each other,
When was the last time you loved my mother?
She did you wrong, I know that now,
But can you not forgive her; what of your vows?
I know you haven't, though you say you did,
Because if that were true, would we be like this?
"Daddy, please, don't leave this way
I wish I could have met her,
But that wasn't meant to be,
She passed on a year before,
You had ever even met me.
Your sister says she'd have loved me,
With as much as I love you,
And to be completely honest,
I certainly hope that's true.
I wish she'd be at our wedding,
To cry with pride for her son,
To ask how many kids we'll have,
Though the answer will always be "None."
I wish that we could visit her,
whatever time we want,
To have conversations and laughs,
On the porch swing out front.
I promise we'll go back someday,
To lay flowers on her stone,
I'll try to wipe the tears away,
To which you might be
Perhaps I was wrong in thinking we should be apart.
After all, it wasn't bad at all in the beginning.
True, things were downhill for awhile.
Really though, it's better now, isn't it?
I love you, and I always will.
Could you do something for me?
Keep me in your heart, always.
Anytime you call, I'm always here.
Never will I leave your side.
Til the day you tell me to.
Hell, not even then.
Only with you do I want to be.
Not even when I'm gone will I stop loving you.
You mean too much to me.
Tear me to pieces emotionally.
Anger and rage could be all you feel.
Yet I can't abandon the hurting boy I see.
Love is all I can bear to fe
I have died a thousand times,
Holding in my lovesick rhyme,
Wish you would forever be mine.
I should have listened to you,
You were right all along,
Now I forge my regret,
Into a tuneless song.
When did life,
Become so wrong?
Life was better with you here.
I know it'd take some time to fully heal.
But I don't want to.
Because I want you.
I know what I said before,
But I've run it through my head,
A thousand times or more,
And being alone,
Kills me to the core.
I don't need me anymore
And neither do you
You never did
Did you
Tear me down mentally
I am nothing now
What's left
No one
Take all that I have
All that I am
Break me
Apart
It only takes 1 pound of pressure to pierce human skin
And only it takes 1 moment alone to make me cry
I may not be made of glass or paper
But I am made of flesh and blood
I'm shattered just as easily
I am not a skyscraper
I'm the Twin Towers
I can't rise above
I've burned down
I'm dead inside
I can't take it
I can't stand on my feet anymore
They're too bloody and bruised
I've crawled into a corner
Hugging my knees hard
Crying broken sobs
I want
I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday... by FadeAway1694, literature
Literature
I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday...
I have loved you all my life,
Without ever seeing the hidden knife.
I listened to your political view,
And your conspiracies, though slightly askew.
I loved your music, movies, and games,
Growing up, we had loved the same things.
We forged a bond, you and I,
One I had hoped would never die.
But I was wrong, and now I see,
That we are no longer a family.
We barely even tolerate each other,
When was the last time you loved my mother?
She did you wrong, I know that now,
But can you not forgive her; what of your vows?
I know you haven't, though you say you did,
Because if that were true, would we be like this?
"Daddy, please, don't leave this way
You wrap me in,
Your sweet embrace,
And wipe away the tears,
Streaming down my face.
You hold me close,
When no one else can,
And make me remember,
Who I really am.
You're the only one,
Who can scream and shout,
And I never get fed up,
Or chew you out.
You've re-kindled a fire,
Thought to be dead,
But all I needed,
Was to get out of my head.
And when you're soft and quiet,
So am I,
You have saved me,
So many times.
I want to live,
Because of you,
You are my Music,
You are my muse.
I tend to write things, occasionally. Not much else to say about that. They vary greatly as far as content, depth, and overall strangeness goes. I don't write as much as I'd like, but that's okay. I don't want to put too much about my actual life on here. Think I'd rather just keep it as my notebook for all my weird thoughts and stories. I'll give occasional updates in journals, but not in my bio. :P
Hey guys. Sooooo, one of my fave bands, In This Moment, just released their new album, Black Widow. Aaaaaand I don't think I like it. Granted, there's a song or two that I don't mind, but the rest is just... -sigh- I don't know where to start. And I feel bad for not liking it as much as I feel I should, but I don't like the new direction they are heading in. A Star-Crossed Wasteland was their best album and I wish they would've kept with that. I like Blood and The Dream, but ASCW is the best. (Although they definitely needed a new music video director because you can get good stories pictured in your head by listening to the songs, but the mu
Hey guys, I'm not even going to try to apologize for how long it's been since I've even touched this site. I'm just going to ask how ya'll are since all of the Journal entries will be very outdated by the time I get to them. (I try to sort through the deviations first.) Not that anyone actually cares to read my entries, but that's okay. Quick update on my life: The last friend I had in this town has moved away. It really sucks, being alone. Yeah, I still have my fiance, but that's it. We still don't have a car, and I still owe $3K+ to the IRS. But I'm working on it. I finally got an increase in my work hours. So I can take care of things a li
And now I'm using Pokemon references. -sigh- Guess I'll never get away from being a nerd, huh? Oh well. This is going to be a relatively long journal, so here's the Table of Contents so you can skip to an interesting part. Even though all of it is just me rambling on and complain about my life and is in no way, shape, or form, interesting.
I. In which I express and explain my anger over getting kicked out of church.
II. In which I express all my emotion over the loss of what few friends I had.
III. In which I explain random little details bothering me in life now.
IV. In which I question whether or not I want to get married after all.
I.