HOLY FUCKING SHIT. I HAVE NOT BEEN ON HERE IN FOR-FUCKING-EVER!!! I'm sorry. I've been a little busy with shit. Yeah, that last journal, where I said it was going to be better? Yeah, that didn't happen. I ended up becoming EXTREMELY depressed and dropping out of school because I couldn't handle it anymore. HOWEVER. I DID GET AN AWESOME AMAZING BOYFRIEND... riiiiiight before I dropped out.
So, now he's in WV and I'm back in ID. Guess I just can't escape long-distance relationships, huh? Oh well. At least I have him. And he is going to visit me out here in a couple months. WHICH IS FUCKING GREAT! I've never had an LDR actually be able to do that. Of course, that means he has to meet my family. ._. This could be interesting. I wonder how they'll take the fact he's a lil older than me (He just turned 30)? Hopefully my mom won't go back on her word that 'it doesn't matter who he is, as long as you're happy'. Yeah, that's probably a load of bullshit, but oh well. Best thing is, he's pretty much the male version of me. Like, literally, we have so much in common that it's scary. Of course, the only way we found that out was to get drunk and actually talk to each other rather than sitting there in awkward silence on our phones whenever we 'hung out'. But yeah, I should probably stop going on and on about because you've probably stopped reading at this point.
Anyhoofle, I'm still going to keep typing because it's FUCKING FUN, OKAY??? Lol, jk. I just like ranting. SO, now that I'm back home, I have a plan to try and keep myself out of depression. Because if I stay in it for any length of time, I start getting stupid ideas involving the guns my dad stowed in my closet while I was gone. (Yeah, my room turned into the 'let's throw everything in there because she's not coming back anytime soon' place.
) SO, here the plan. 1. I'm going to get my driver's license. 2. I'm going to get a car. (Although according to my older brother, whom I'm apparently sharing my car with, I'M the one that's going to actually buy the car, but I have to share it. -_- ) 3. I'm also going to get a bike cuz I miss biking and it should help with 4. Lose a shit-ton of weight. Or at the very least tone it into muscle. Why? Because I would like to look fucking hot when the Bf sees me next. I'm going to take yoga classes, exercise on my own and start eating healthier. (Kinda have to now, my family will hold me accountable.) 5. Get a second job. One that's OUTSIDE of my house (currently I work as an at-home tech support agent) so I can get out more as well as actually KEEP my damn paycheck to start getting the things I want to get instead of handing it off to mom for rent and school bills. (Which is reasonable and understandable, and I get it, but I'm a greedy lil bitch and want things. lol) So yeah. That's the plan. Will it work? Iunno. Find out eventually. In the meantime, I will try to get my watch messages back down under 2,000 and look at all the wonderful art you've created. ^_^ Oh! And get back to making some of my own.